| Location | Newcastle |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Still Birth |
| Date of Birth | 29/01/2009 |
| Date of Death | 29/01/2009 |
| Visitors | 4,347 since 20/04/2009 |
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My gorgeous little boy Liam, i remember the day i found out i was going to have a little bundle of joy, it took me 10mins to walk up stairs and tell your daddy. We loved you from that very second it was the sort of love that can never be described.....
The day we saw you for the first time was one of the best days of our lifes, we both cried and the lady doing the scan said to us i wish more parents that came in here cry when they see baby for the first time. Our love for you Liam grew stronger every second! When i went to see the midwife she asked if i would like to hear your little heart beat and i jumped at the chance once again mammy cried daddy was so guuted he never heard your little heart beat! The day i found out i was having a little boy was amazzing it was so clear i couldnt believe that i had the most perfect little boy inside me i never wanted that day to end. We were so excited to meet you! Once again back at the midwife i jumped at the chance to hear your little heart i walked out of there the proudest i have ever been in my whole life. But little did i know the worst day of my life was just 3weeks away! i remember it like it was yesterday i hadnt felt you move and i knew there was something wrong but tried to make my self believe that you were just asleep, i rang the hospital and was told to go straight down me and daddy went down and prayed the whole way there that you were fine and you were just giving mammy and daddy a fright, we were met by the most nicest midwife ever, Shelia took us into a room and told us what was going to happen, she was going to put the heart monitor on my tummy so we could hear your heart beat! It felt like a life time, she picked up a heart beat but wasnt sure if it was mine! She then asked the doctor to come in and give me a scan, i couldnt see the screen so i just kept my eyes on daddy looking for the twinkle in his eye to say "YES HES FINE" but that twinkle never came i just screamed "NOOOOOOOOO hes got to be ok!!!!" i didnt want to believe that you my pride and joy had gone to heaven, they tried to calm me down but nothing would work they tried to expalin that i had to take a tablet i dont know why i had to take it but i did thinking that if i took it it would bring you back. We were then told we had to go home and come back on the wednesday, the wednesday came and i was in total denial told the midwife and doctor that i had felt you move and i was just in hospital to prove everyone wrong! Doctor scaned me again and he really hurt me and all i could think that if hes hurting me then hes got to be really hurting you! i just wanted him to get off me and stop poking at you, i was then told alot more stuff but nothing would stick i kept asking if i had you would they be able to do any thing to bring you back to me? I kept getting told the same thing am sorry but theres nothing we can do it felt like my heart had been ripped out a million times over! Daddy kept saying were going to meet Liam soon but you werent ready! The next day was over so quick i still cant believe it, i woke up with pains in my back and buzzed the midwife in she gave me pain killers and said we'll start you on the gas and air then the next thing i knew i was having an eperdural which didnt work so mam had to have another one, this one worked mam fell asleep through this one, daddy went out to use the phone to tell granda it doesnt look like you were gonna be here any time soon, daddy just walked through the door and my waters broke but daddy just though mammy had wet her self silly daddy! About 2 to 3 hours later you were born my gorgeous baby boy was here all mammy could do was cry... They took you away to be cleaned and check you over and brought my pride and joy back and i just held you, i didnt ever want to let you go daddy ran out to tell both nanas and grate nana and granda that you were here i didnt care about anyone just you.. Everyone came in to meet you and i just wanted them to leave us alone i just wanted it to be me you and daddy... We asked the rev Pat to come in as we wanted you to be christend she read a lovely poem out which had us all in tears, then it was time for everyone to go home, at last me and daddy had you all to our selfs i couldnt get any more proud than i was at that time. We made sure we had loads of photos of you, from that day till the day we left the hospital you never left my side i wouldnt let you out my sight. It killed me leaving you that the hospital i only hope they took the best care of you that they could!?! We came back and seen you darling and you didnt change one bit, once again it was time to go home and it broke my heart all over again!! We had to arrange your send of i wanted to give you the best send off i could ever give you, we picked a lovely white casket to show how pure you are, i wanted you to come home and see where you would have lived with mammy and daddy but were told you couldnt come home until the day before your send off, i remember on the sunday before you came home i was so excited to see and kiss you again i never slept at all kept looking out the window looking for you as i knew it wouldnt be long before you came home. About 8 o'clock in the morning we got the phone call we had been waitting on Liam is coming home in the next hour i couldnt be more excited.... When you came through the door i just couldnt wait to just kiss you, the minister came and i'll never forget our convosation he said to me forgive me if you think am out of order but you dont look like you have just lost your child! i just said to him its because i feel like a normal mother i have my baby next to me who is a sleep! We asked him to read your poem out to everyone as it touched us so much we wanted everyone to hear it and as he was reading through he had to stop as he was filling up himself. The day came where i had to say goodbye and i felt like my heart had been ripped out again, it came to taking you out to the car everyone stood and stared, the drive up to the crem was horrible people in there cars stared too we arrived at the crem and i couldnt get out the car i didnt want to say goodbye as i wasnt ready and i knew you werent ready to go up to heaven but i had to do it for you... we walked in to the song "always on my mind" which you are! All through the service i just couldnt take my eyes off you then it was time to close the curtain i just wanted to scream NOOOOOO!!!!!! and run up to you and give you the biggest kiss ever but i couldnt move, the curtain was closed and all i could think am the worst mother ever to let them horrible people to that to my baby, we sat and listen to YOUR song "tears in heaven" i just didnt want to move hoping you would just come running from behind the curtain shouting MAMMY dont leave me!!!! Everyone followed daddy and i out said there were so sorry and it was a lovely send off but i couldnt get the thought that i was the worst mother in the whole world out of my head! The nicest part of that day was that you had touched the lives fo your midwifes so much that they turned up to make sure you had a lovely send off that made mammy and daddy so proud to know that you were such a special little boy! Every day after that Liam has been the worst days of my life more so now, we would be getting ready for your arrivel any day now.... We need you to know that your our pride and joy and we'll always love you and cant wait until the day we meet you again. Theres not one second that goes by that were not thinking of you darling. Sleep tight gorgeous your with the angels now, god only takes the best your are far to good for this world darling Mammy and Daddy love you always xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
My Gorgeous Baby Boy.....
Hello my angel....
Hope your ok? Well it's that time of year again baby... Mammys heart feels like its braking into a thousand pieces all over again... Questions keep running through my head.... Why me? Why my baby boy? Did I do something wrong? Did I not love you enough? An I not a good enough mammy? All these questions which am never gonna get answers too!!
Am sick of people saying 'he wasn't meant to be' 'it wasn't his time' 'times a great healer' 'it will get easier' how can people say this to me? They haven't got the slightest of an idea what were going through right now, I kiss you good night every night, I'd give anything just to kiss your sweet little lips, feel your gorgeous button nose and tuck you in at night...
Everytime I look at Layton I see you in him, I see what you would have been like, I see what your cheeky little smile would have looked like... I lie here in bed every night wondering what you have been up too!! I just want to hide away from everyone tomorrow I wanna lie in bed all day an snuggle with you....
Your my world my everything and I love you with every inch of my body and soul....
Loved with a love beyond telling, missed with a grief beyond all tears
Your heartbroken mammy
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My Gorgeous Baby Boy
Hey baby boy....
Hope your ok angel!?! Well baby it's getting to that time of year again, the time of year where I cry and cry and cry!! My heart aches sooooo much for you baby boy... A'd give anything to hold you tight and never let go.... Am so pleased you came and stayed with mammy for the day baby, was the best feeling ever when I smelt you I had a smile on my face all day!!
Mammys friend has died and I hope you met him at the gates, show him the ropes lol, and make sure he looks down on Amy and his gorgeous daughters.... His funeral is the day after you left us :( next week is gonna be a mega hard week!! Just stay with me and help me get through it which am sure you will!!
Think am gonna try and get some sleep now baby boy, keep looking over your baby brother Layton!! Keep playing with his car so I know your still with us!!
Loved with a love beyond telling, Missed with a grief beyond all tears
Until we meet again baby boy, fly high and sleep tight,
Love you to infinity and beyond
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My Gorgeous Baby Boy
Hey my gorgeous baby boy... Mammys really sorry she hasn't been on in a while, we'll as you already know mammy and daddy got married last year! Was a lovely day, Layton ran all over and really enjoyed the attention, Granda and daddys friend J made a speech and mentioned you which made mammy ball her eyes out, just wish you could have been there....
We received a phone call the day before Xmas eve to say your plaque is now ready and up on the baby memorial, so on Xmas eve me daddy and Layton went up to have a look at your gorgeous plaque and lay flowers for you, hope you liked them... Hope you had a fab Xmas up there with all your friends, we missed you millions here! Hope you know you would have been 1 spoiled little boy!!
We're now preparing for your 3rd birthday, gonna do something as a family just me daddy and Layton... Am over the moon that am eventually getting your angel wings and halo tattooed round your name on Thursday! Just in time for your birthday...
I've found this little poem/verse that I love :-
Loved with a love beyond telling, missed with a grief beyond all tears.
There's never been a truer words written than these, your my world my everything and I love and miss you more and more each day.
Your still heart broken mammy
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Guardian Angel from heaven so bright,
Watching beside me to lead me aright,
Fold thy wings round me, and guard me with love,
Softly sing songs to me of heaven above.
Amen.
My gorgeous baby boy!
HAPPY 2ND BIRTHDAY Liam sweetheart!
Hope your having the best birthday possible, we had a lovely day celebrating your birthday! We took Layton to put your flowers down! Layton got you a Thomas balloon thought it might be nice to have it here at home with your card so Layton can play with it!
Ad give anything to have you here right now so we could sing happy birthday to you and watch you blow out your candles! All see if I can put the photos on from today for you to have a look at!
Once again HAPPY BIRTHDAY baby boy enjoy your party up there and enjoy all your prezzys coz I know you'll be 1 very spoiled little boy.
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A Birthday In Heaven - by Kris Smith
I heard you crying yesterday,
And felt your heart-sent love.
So I’m sending you this message
Now, from Heaven up above.
You’re wondering if I’ll celebrate
My Birthday (way up here).
I know you’re missing me today
I feel your essence near.
God planned a special day for me,
He told me with a wink.
He’d ordered me a special cake
(It’s Angel food, I think).
Balloons will fill the streets for me,
They float up through the clouds.
And we have lots of friends up here
That make us laugh out loud.
There is a Birthday carousel,
Jewelled horses ride the wind,
With music playing, oh so sweet…
The magic never ends.
I’ve made so many friends, you see
We laugh and play and sing.
We ride our bikes and play jump rope
And sleep in Angel’s wings.
We’ll have our cake and ice cream
And open gifts - SURPRISE!
But we don’t blow out our candles here
Instead, they light the skies.
With love from your little Angel XX
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIAM
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Birthday Remembrance
Thinking of you on your birthday Liam
But that is nothing new
For no day dawns and no day ends
Without a thought of you.
We cannot send a birthday card,
Your hand we cannot touch,
But God will take our greetings
To the one we love so much.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIAM
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bigs hugs from me to you and your family
and friends that you miss you ever day but
in our hearts forever you will not be forgotin
all my love hugs and xxxx from me Sylvie
mommy of Samantha Belanger and
Granddaughter of Albert and Marie-Jeanne
Belanger take care bye for now.
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BIG HUGS LIAM
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⋱♰⋰ Angel Day ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ Your Angel Day in Heaven ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ Many tears will fall for you ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ You touched so many loving hearts ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ There’s so many missing you ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ As you now live in paradise ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ Its Heaven up above stay ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ Close to all your loved ⋱♰⋰
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⋱♰⋰ forgoten you take care love from me ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ Sylvie mommy of Samantha Belanger ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ and Granddaughter of Albert and ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ Marie-Jeanne Belanger take care ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ hugs and XXXX bye for now good ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ night ⋱♰⋰
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My Gorgeous Baby Boy
Hello sweetheart
Hope your ok? Hope you've had a fab Xmas, you were missed loads here! You should have been here helping Layton open his prezzys.
Well your baby brother isn't gonna be a baby for much longer he's now crawling and has his 1st tooth, and is the double of you!
Mammy and daddy are doing ok, daddys at work tomorrow so we'll be going to bed soon while everyones out partying! We just wanted to stay in with you and Layton.
Well I must go sweetheart taking to much of your party time up already! Am so tired your Layton knows how to tire me out lol.
You have a fab new year baby make sure you come and give us 3 big kisses at 12 o'clock!
Love you more than words can describe.......
Love miss and thinking of you always
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Tiny Angels rest your wings
sit with me for awhile.
How I long to hold your hand,
And see your tender smile.
Tiny Angel, look at me,
I want this image clear....
That I will forget your precious face
Is my biggest fear.
Tiny Angel can you tell me,
Why you have gone away?
You weren't here for very long....
Why is it, you couldn't stay?
Tiny Angel shook his head,
"These things I do not know....
But I do know that you love me,
And that I love you so".
Hoping your family have a happy New Year
With love
Hayden's nannie
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